While being new to all of this I started asking myself what if my two near death experiences had been a message?
For a long time I was a conventional christian, didn't really go to church but still prayed and worshipped god jesus etc. Then i had my first near death experience, which was actually a death experience, and all that occurred was nothingness. No visions no experiences no afterlife just never ending blackness and the sensation of floating, almost as if was back in the womb. Then my second near death experience had to have been divine intervention ala pulp fiction, where by all means i should have died but didn't. When the incident occurred I completely blacked out and when i woke up i was in exactly no worse condition than when it happened, however for such a miracle the black out was the same experience.
That has had me asking, what does this mean?
I've always thought if it was god or jesus saving my life they would make it known and clear it was because of them, however it always made more sense that it was someting else protecting me and showing me maybe it was something I had no idea about at the time. What gave me that idea was the feeling of being in a womb no sensation at all besides a slight floating and being unnutured and new to the afterlife with no real knowledge of what lies beyond.
Since then I've been open to the idea of something else being the reason those experiences were like that and since pursuiting luciferian research and learning more and more my quality of life has seemed to increase, i feel more free and accepted than i have in a long time and for how i lived during the time of those two incidents it makes sense that instead of god or jesus saving me, perhaps it was something on the shadow side of things reaching out. I just wish i knew what...with time maybe the force that saved me will present itself.
Anyone have similar experiences?